If you do not feel fully aligned, inside and out, spring may be just what you have needed to get moving in the right direction. Even if in this minute, you aren’t sure which direction to move. Let’s go…let’s realign with the blooming of the flowers.

Empty spaces. I used to count the empty spaces. A continuous checklist of who wasn’t here. Analyzing and over analyzing the reasons given and wondered who just didn’t want to be here. Or rather, who didn’t pick me, who else would feel not chosen, and how I would smooth out everyone else’s feeling around this madness in my mind. Was that ever my job or just an over embellished sense of self that I could make others feel better?

Getting honest with yourself means lowering your shoulders and acknowledging what is hard, what is frustrating, what is out of your comfort zone and then taking a good look at where you could use some support. Getting honest does not mean defeat. It does not mean failure. It is just what is true right now, in this moment. The longer we deny what is true, the longer the moment will last. 

It never seems to fail, after several hours or even days of life rolling along smoothly, happily even, out of nowhere, the clouds return.

Why does my life constantly have this way of rolling…good, then bad, then good…it makes it impossible to even enjoy the good at all!

Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that.

So let’s recreate this inner dialogue, being mindful about the light we choose. First let’s begin by stating the things that we do know to make it feel less dark. The coming dark winter may simply be similar to last March, except with shorter days and less warmth (depending on where you live). Since you DID survive last March, as well as April, etc, there is no reason to think you can’t survive it again.

It was Monday morning and I was ready to follow through with my self imposed writing goals. I felt organized and successful, knowing that while no one else was invested in my goals, I was still committed to honoring them.